Reentry -

I have been out of the loop for a while, since September 2010 to be exact. Today I opened my email account and found I had a new follower. Blogging can be quite self indulgent and because there are so many writers out there I've been really struggling with my own urge to express along with the myriad of others with the same desire. So I'm taking today as a sign, a little encouragement to get back in with the multitude of words written daily.

So profound thought of the day: Life is hard. Since I wrote last, I've been doing a lot of self examination, taking a sabbatical from the call of pastor's wife, discovered a dear friend has a horrible malignancy in her brain and my granddaughter took a nasty stumble down wet stairs last night that resulted with a trip to the ER. (She was treated with 3 stitches and a Popsicle.)

Compounding the difficulty of life with it's challenges of divorce, death, disease, cancer and yes, let's not forget our earth's belching of fire, earthquakes, storms and drought; there is something within us that is attacking as well.

These missiles that strike to the core of our heart and value are what I am now calling lies. It starts early enough, birth to be exact and builds with each year we exist. From the moment of our entry into this planet we encounter people who treat us or mistreat us due to what they believe about who they are and who we are. This constitutes much abuse to every single being on this planet.

There are three ways we respond to this abuse, due to our foundation of lies. We fight, we deny or we go numb. It's how we survive. I've been fighting and frankly I am tired. Fighting doesn't work very well it is destroying my heart. Denial doesn't work either, for ignoring the facts does not make them going away. Walking around comatose to our daily encounters does not diminish the truth that occurs in and around us. So I'm working on another way; a better way; a more godly way.

This is a journey for me. Uncovering the lies that I have built into the innermost recesses of my heart. Until recently, unknown and unrealized. But God is patiently revealing, healing and loving as I build a more solid foundation of truth. It's hard work, but it's a good process.

So, I'm back. I will be sharing more as I uncover the beauty of a God who invites us to live in what is lovely, true and pure. A God who has done everything possible to deliver us from these lies. A God who does not condemn us, but delivers us from these oppressive ways we deal with each other and ourselves. So, here I go, relearning how to dance . . . . again.